There’s no waking from these nightmares…
They aren’t only bad dreams,
But all too real, tragic events.
Can’t you hear the desperate screams,
Of innocents crying out for help…
Silenced before they can be saved?
More lives are lost to violence…
More tombstones wait to be engraved.
© Mary Elizabeth Balderrama
Did I miss any chance that came my way?
Is everything lost to yesterday?
Was there a great price I had to pay…
For words I said or refused to say,
And things I did or didn’t do?
Have possibilities grown few…
Unlike when my dreams were new,
And I had an optimistic view?
Is it too late to compensate…
For losing time that wouldn’t wait?
Am I a victim claimed by fate…
Whose bright promise has passed its date?
© Mary Elizabeth Balderrama
Without you, I’ll be lost.
No matter what the cost,
I’ll pay the price for you.
It’s all that I can do.
There’s no alternative…
And nothing I won’t give.
Whatever you require…
I’ll fulfill your desire.
© Mary Elizabeth Balderrama
Maybe I should give up,
Like you told me to…
Strive for nothing new…
Be happy where I am,
Though it’s hard to do.
Together, I thought we,
Might be something more,
Than we’d be, on our own…
Better than before,
When the rain did pour.
With you close beside me,
I felt really alive.
I knew we could arrive,
At any goal we set…
And that we’d only thrive.
You fueled me with your love…
Fire and energy.
I’m lost without it now.
Please give it back to me…
I love you…can’t you see?
© Mary Elizabeth Balderrama
I thought my love could break through…
Those thick brick walls you’ve built,
To protect your fragile heart.
But, love’s flower is left to wilt…
Due to the memory,
Of another love, whose sins…
Against you, won’t fade away.
So, neither of us wins.
© Mary Elizabeth Balderrama
I asked you to tell me how you felt…
You made it clear with your reply.
You never loved me as I loved you…
And there’s an end to my you and I.
I should have realized much sooner.
I might have known if I wasn’t blind…
Blinded with illusions in my eyes,
I played a fool and lost my mind.
Thank you for telling me candidly…
Exactly how you truly feel.
I’d rather know if something’s false…
Instead of believing that it’s real.
© Mary Elizabeth Balderrama
I miss you when you’re far away…
No one to brighten up my day.
I long to have you here with me,
Providing your stability…
Keeping me steady as I go,
Along my travels, to and fro.
I’m so lost when I don’t have you…
I’m in this utter darkness too.
Your love is what helps me to see…
Guiding me nightly and daily.
I miss you more than words convey…
When you’re not here to light my way.
© Mary Elizabeth Balderrama
I always thought we’d be together.
I truly hoped we’d be forever.
It wasn’t written in our stars…
I wasn’t Venus to your Mars.
You always needed to be free…
Wouldn’t tie yourself to me.
I’m really sorry I have to go…
How I loved you, you’ll never know.
You flatly refused to believe…
Thought you were always deceived.
You used to say I’d leave one day…
Inevitably, along the way.
Maybe you were right to be afraid…
A worse mess might have been made,
If we had crossed the lines you drew…
To keep me separate from you.
You made sure the divide was wide…
I couldn’t cross over to your side.
My heart would break to make you cry.
So, I whisper a soft goodbye,
As these tears roll from my eyes…
While I heave such heavy sighs,
For beautiful might have beens…
This lost dream that never begins.
© Mary Elizabeth Balderrama
The only one, I dearly loved,
Who understood my heart…
The cherished one, I clearly loved,
Completely, from the start…
Has been utterly lost, today,
Forever and far away…
Where my feet cannot follow…
And Death, alone, can go.
© Mary Elizabeth Balderrama
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